Change of my path..

I'm thinking to change my life style. I used to think helping TIs and trying to work on the organized stalking issue is something to do with activism and helping the ones oppressed (including me).

The organized stalkers' intention would be simple - destroy the target in the society.

Now, I learned how much of the mind control in the means of civilian control done by the NSA and the cooperative local authority to support the program causes more trouble as the whole society. People seem to accept it as a necessary evil. I am sure it is certainly against Christianity. Jesus did not oppress others. He could argue with the elders because of the different view of the religion. The Bible says that Jesus was falsely accused. More people were falsely accused in the Bible. Not everyone followed Jesus was praised or admired. The ones now admired are the ones killed because of their faith. John the Baptist is one of them.

In our society, we must compete with each other in order to survive or get better life. I thought helping Zeitgeist movement would reduce such oppressive tension among people. Less competition can make people to have much time and human approach to each other. Think about anthropologists, they tell lies and they make up the research for the benefit of the authorities. They call themselves the master of human culture and human being yet they are under the jungle law for the survival. While they are under the intention of a specific force, they cannot act to view the things as the whole which is much objective and scientific.

Why people are encouraged to work for the military these days? What they do? A solder's faith is in the country not the citizens. He is trained to kill people and work in the operations to destroy the target. The psychological warfare seems to have the same effect. The one who is crashed mentally from the outside force would be considered as weak. Bullying and mobbing could cause the victim to have psychiatric injury. In the military, it would be the situation that the solder defeated by the enermy. The boys don't cry. The old fashioned proverb can fit to the situation. If you are bullied, what you can do is either fight back (to go to jail for the violence) or run away (retreat). The same theory seems to fit perfectly in the organized stalking problem. The cure for gaslighting would be the retreat from the person causing the psychiatric injury. However, the real problem is the one who cause the problem. The victim once complained the problem, the one would be thought as the loser of the game and is able to be the target for the victim blaming. I want to be neither the winner or the loser; I wanna change the game itself.

What I can do? I wanna explain what the victims should know and how to act to reduce the problem. I could continue to write what I think to work for the victim of gang stalking / electronic harassment problems. However, I don't think this is something I wanna do for entire my life. Everyone wants to have their own normal life, so do I.

Ever since I was attracted to Christianity and the life of Jesus and the Virgin Mary, Mary Magdalene, and other saints, I always wanted to work for them. I don't know what I can do as I would be harassed by the organized stalkers if I go to a church. From the observation, the stalkers seem to be the local police informants. They mimick the target for psychological harassment. I don't really like them harassing me inside of the God's house. So, I quit attending the Sunday Mass since the summer of 2008. If I wanted to attend a Mass, I could find some broadcasting online.

It's nice to talk with sisters who know a lot about Christianity. They might live in a different world and must be working under strict regulations. I thought that's something I can find the role model for my life. I've tried to follow the way of St. Francis, but I wasted so much time and money on things that I might not really need. I could have be aware of the vow of poverty he experienced. There are more things to reflect my life. And I feel myself as a sinner and not yet ready to say anything about him or others who lived one's life for the faith to Jesus Christ.